I’m so happy you’ve found your way to my blog! I’ve put a lot of work and vulnerability into it but it’s all worth it to me if it means I can help you find the hope and the healing you’ve been looking for.
I’ve been asked a number of times what made me decide to share my story of abuse on my blog. Honestly, when the thought to write about it first came, I shut it up as fast as possible. NO. WAY. I would never. I could never. But the thought kept coming and coming no matter how I tried to reason my way out of it. So, eventually, I started considering it. Kind of.
One day, I was on the phone with my personal mentor and I ran the idea past her. I told her that just the thought of sharing my story publicly made me sick to my stomach. I didn’t know how to do it. She made a really great point by saying, “Well, why can’t the blog be anonymous?” That was it! I would just start a new blog anonymously! That way I could share my story without anyone knowing it was me. I could still help other people without the vulnerability of people knowing it was me. Perfect.
As I started to create this anonymous blog, I started with one of my favorite quotes; a quote I’ve been trying to live by. “Courage is to never let your actions be influenced by your fears.” Literally, as I was typing this out, I had what I like to call a “Holy Crap Moment”. I realized that was exactly what I was doing! I was letting my fears influence my actions. I was scared of what people would say and think. I was scared of being vulnerable. I was scared of putting my whole story out there for the whole world to judge. And it was 100% because of that fear that I had decided to start an anonymous blog.
And that was it. I decided right then that I was not going to let my fear influence my decision. I was going to share my story of abuse and I was going to own it. The decision to do so was somewhat liberating. That doesn’t mean it was easy. It’s one of the hardest things I’ve ever done but I’m really proud of myself. I’ve lived in fear far too much of my life but no more. I found the courage to leave and now I’m finding the courage to speak up.
I hope you can to.